2025/26 feels
hello and welcome back to the clumsy world blog. i can’t believe it’s been over two years since i published a blog post… but at the same time, i can. in the last five years of running this small business, i’ve allowed myself to be messy, clumsy, disorganized and uniquely me. with that, there have been a lot of things i wish i didn’t lose sight of for so long, writing being one of them. but i’m here now, and i’ve learned so much along the way. none of it has been for naught.
to be honest, last year kind of felt like a decade. the year started out with historically devastating fires in los angeles, shaking the city i have come to feel so at home in to its core. it was my first time actually getting a go bag packed and ready. environmental catastrophes are always shocking, but throughout the experience of the fires i really felt the intensity of life in this era of climate disaster. the year continued to bring so many challenges and gifts alike, many of which i am still processing.
the first two months of 2026 have felt similarly shocking, overwhelming, and heartbreaking. ICE has been disappearing our neighbors, and killing others who try to stand up for their communities. trans folks are being scapegoated and having their rights taken away without warning. the world is hurting in so many ways, and we are also seeing SO MANY people coming together to fight against this fascist and white supremacist regime that is no longer lurking under the shadows, but parading in all its terror and hatred. i’m encouraged by the upswell of concerned citizens that are living their values daily through boycotts, mutual aid, intentional awareness and community power.
a striking moment from last year was in june ~ i was vending at a market in the arts district of los angeles while the national guard was being deployed on my community members that were protesting ICE raids literally one block away from us. my next few markets were postponed, and once again the city that i love was navigating complicated waters in the best way it knew how: people coming together, supporting each other, saying what needs to be said and doing our best to make it through the tragedies.
in august, i was incredibly fortunate to participate in the survivor wealth summit organized by Free From. the entire experience was truly life-changing, in ways i am still understanding + integrating. i learned SO much in the four days of gathering with other survivors, healers, engaged activists and change-makers. i worked through my own imposter syndrome while doing my best to soak up all of the love, community support, and radical imagining happening all around me. i had the honor of taking part in the survivor made market, next to vendor friends like Earthy Corazon who inspired me to apply to the market in the first place. i am so grateful to be a part of this community and to continue building the world we deserve with other similarly caring and passionate humans.
i vended at 28 markets/events in 2025. sold my clumsy world goods in 7 stores. connected with so many sweet souls who gave me the courage + determination to keep doing what i’m doing. in april, i got married in a drive-thru ceremony at the iconic little white chapel in las vegas. in june i organized a raffle for my friends in gaza and was able to send them almost $700 to help with urgent needs + daily necessities. in september, i went camping in mendocino for a dance retreat experience called unplugged. i started modeling for my friend jacky’s brand pogona, validating my desire to keep being seen in many different realms and spaces. i’ve continued to explore the multifaceted nature of living creatively through every commitment and engagement i decide to invest my time in, and i’m truly living the life i didn’t even know i could dream of.
looking forward, i hope that this year holds a lot of healing for all of us. my intentions for this year are to allow for more expression. more enjoyment. more connection, more care. i know i will be continuing to follow my intuitive creative sparks, maintaining my sanity through lots of rest and cuddles with my cats. this year will hold my first full gallery show, more markets around los angeles and elsewhere, very exciting collaborations, and more that remains to be revealed! whether you’ve been here since the beginning or you just found clumsy world, thank you so SO much for being here. i’m still just getting started 🤗